I’ve been listening to Pandora for a while and it’s probably the only reason I haven’t switched to a Windows Phone yet. If you’re not familiar with it, you choose songs or artists and build your own radio stations.
I was sitting and listening to the rock music I listened to as a teenager in one of those rare moments of inactivity in between other moments. With headphones in my ears and sitting on my bed I closed my eyes and remembered listening to these same songs in my angsty youth. I tried to imagine myself sitting on the bed in my parents’ house being a teenager and feeling the emotions I felt then. But the emotions I feel now for this music are just echoes. And I can’t even get myself to forgot for one second who I am now. I think that’s a good thing. I feel stronger and more confident now. Maybe more like an adult than I wish I always was or had to be but there it is. Something in me has fundamentally changed and grown. No going back.